Savor

Lord, You speak so much to me through Scripture, and You've spoken to me in this text:

2 Peter 1:5-8 : For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, SELF-CONTROL; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.

The last thing I want is to be ineffective in my knowledge Lord. And You've built that up so much over the past year. So now, I'm asking, add self-control to my knowledge.

The thing that I'm struggling with controlling now is my thoughts, I'm hungry all the time and I can't focus on You. Here I am expecting miraculous things to happen in my life and in the lives of those I lead, but I can't even open myself up to You. Isn't that the problem? Finding space. You're inhabiting all the space around me, all the time, but I can't take time to just be in that space with You. I'm only interested in travelling through that space.

That's what's happening to me now. I'm trying to get past these 40 days, to move through them. I hear You calling me to dwell in them to relish them. My whole world is saturated in moments that are to be savored, I'm beginning to realize. Help me to slow down and savor You. There so many rich textures around me, help me to taste them, touch them, live in them. I thank You for leading me here today, to where I am.