I Should Explain...

Last night I posted about fear-of-the-Lord, and I was really pushing You Lord. Pushing You to make me feel that reverence and respect and boy did You. As I was writing my challenge to You, as I was laying my whole self and life and everything and everybody in it on the table I became very afraid.

My thoughts were, "What if God follows through and does make me revere Him?" All the awesome and mighty and terrible things You could do. I thought about how You could make me suddenly lose my job and have to lean on You for all support. I thought about how You could take away my life or worse, one of my loved ones. I feared, truly feared, that You could completely walk out of my life I the disaster that that would become would make me fear You. I suddenly and in one small moment saw all the power and glory that You hold, and the terrible damage that it could do to my life to let it be unleashed.

So I stopped. I want that glory and that power to be used in and through my life as a source of good. I want to be in awe and reverence of the powerful works of good that You do. You took me outside last night and reminded of the goodness and grandness and intricacy of Your creation (then looking at Bryan's blog did that too). You took me back to the time when You heard my deepest, most strained, most tear-filled cry when I thought I was losing my beloved. You took me to all the great works that You are doing right now in my life that I pass over daily.

Continue to take me to these places of wonder...