Honesty

Hello, everybody! Super-Christian here. Just wanted to update my blog and tell you all the great spiritual insights that I've --- ugh...

Please allow to stop for a second and kill Super-Christian. Lord, I've been so dishonest with You over the past several weeks. Ash Wednesday was about confessing and You know what problem I had, I literally was having a difficult time finding anything. Any little thing I did find came with an excuse.

So no more of that, time to lay my sin on the line before You. Time to start dealing with it for real. So today, I made a list. Here it is, uncovered, shouted from the rooftops so that You can begin to deal with me.

- I straight lied to one of my students today. He wanted a tennis racquet restrung, I forgot to do it. So I told him that I had talked to the restringing guy and he said it would be a little while before he could do it. Straight lie.

- My lessons for my class today? One word. Lazy. Why? Because soccer scores are more important, because I use my prep to rest, because I had to grade tests. I'm good at improvisational teaching, that excuse allows for a lot of laziness.

- Speaking of laziness, spent my last prep hour today watching high school gym class. Not that I had lessons to plan for tomorrow, oh wait...

- Oh, and while I was improvisationally working through a lesson, the students were getting frustrated at their lack of understanding. So compassionate as I am, I launched into a lecture on how they ought to pay better attention if they want to learn. True, but maybe if the teacher had an organized plan,,,

Sin is always an issue. It seeps into places it shouldn't be, finds excuses I shouldn't have, keeps me from dealing with my Lord in the way I should. I admit it. I've got even more failures on the list.

Ask Your questions of me Lord. I see now, in the light of blatant sinfulness that I have fallen short of Your glory. Break me, but forgive. I honestly want to seek You. Help my fallenness.