Disappointed together. I can't get this song by The Myriad out of my head as we head to the last day of this fast. It's amazing that You've led me this far through something I thought would be so difficult. The honest truth is that I don't want it to end. I don't want to go back to normal. How can I prevent that?
This morning though, as I sift through my brain and try to see what You're saying to me on this big, dramatic last day, I feel confused. I know that I/we have made significant progress in our relationship, Lord, and yet there is this sense in me that there is so much more to do. I guess that gives me hope.
Yea, it does give me hope. Which would be a great thought to end this fast on. I have seen You work in my life over the past month and a half and that gives me hope. Hope and confidence.
I know that the only way to self-control is Your control. That sounds cliche, but it is truth. I hope in the fact that as I learn to leave things to You, You will do a much better job at keeping control. God, You came to Moses and simply stated to him, "I Am." You are control. You are hope.
As I meander through this final day, "You Be" in my life. That is the only way that I can avoid being disappointed tonight as we break bread together. Let me come to the body and the blood tonight singing "You are."
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welcome to the last day!!!!
how are you feeling
I am proud of you for making it to the finish line. How will you cross over? Will it be in defeat, thinking that God didn't speak in that big loud voice, or in victory knowing that the reason He spoke in a whisper is so you would listen and because, get this, He was there all along. Like you said "I AM", Christ in us. Read Col 1:26-27 "The mystery that has been kept hidden for ages and generations....is Christ in you." thanks for sharing your journey. Mom
Matthew~
Thank you for sharing your intimate moments with the LORD on this blog for all to see and share the journey with you. I have looked forward to your blog everyday as I come into work and have been actually disappointed when there was none there for that day. I just got my computer back from being fixed and "caught up" with your blog today. It is exciting for me to see that you made it through and are on your last day! Congrats on making it through and accomplishing this great feat that few will ever experience. You have been inspiration and a blessing to me through this entire process, so know that God did a lot in your life and also used your life to touch others. Thanks again for sharing this awesome time in your life and continue to enjoy your time with HIM!
In God's Love,
Joel R. Greenwood
Thanks each of you for your awesome comments. I feel overwhelmed that you have been following my simple journey. Mom, I think its definitely a cross-over in victory. I don't want to leave the fast because of the vastness of God I have found in it. Thanks again!
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