Planning and Alloting

It's difficult for me to get into a worshipping mood, even a prayerful mood, following the book of Joshua. Today's reading it wasn't violent, it was just... boring, allotment of land. Now, trust me, I believe that I'm not the person who needs to be entertained all the time. But, I'll admit that my Bible reading goes a lot better when there is some action.

My life has plenty of action right now, plenty of plans that need to be made, and I'm already quite tired of them. I tell you the truth, planning is not my forte. I wish my wife could take some of those duties off my plate. Just this week I need to plan or help plan all my lessons, concession stand duty for tonight, tennis open court tomorrow morning, a two Chapel series on sexuality, this Sunday's Exodus service, and next week's Spiritual Life Week at Bethany. God help me not become overwhelmed. God help me to get things done. God grant me some peace in the planning.

My heart tugs me to work on some more creative elements. I want to work on poetry, I want to design Bethany tennis gear (although I'm realizing design is better left to Bryan), I want to put time into some more narrative study of the Bible. These all seem like good things but they get lost in the time squash. I like the part of Bryan's rule of life that said he was going to take time each week to be creative. I'd like to extend that from a minimum amount of time to like a full day. How awesome would it be to have one day of work a week where I just got to be creative? Make creative lesson plans, write poetry, learn to play the guitar better, keep up the tennis website with interesting graphics and articles.

Yea, I do wish I had time for my wants. But, I know that you are teaching me something about the obligations. About responsibility. And that is important I'm sure. Let me learn from the normal stuff, the allotment of land and the planning of chapels, and in these responsibilities come closer to You.