Rededication

Lord God, I've had a bit of a rough week. I started out the week tired, probably because of late night Super Bowl viewing. All week I've had a stressful activity at some point during the day, whether that be hoping that chapel goes well because I was responsible for the chapel speakers, or trying to find people to work the concession stand at the basketball game, or having a class I wasn't quite prepared for because of other responsibilities...whatever. Stress seems to go along with having too much planning on my plate right now.

And I've had less time to be creative, which is driving me nuts. In the month of January I had enough down time to complete a bunch of poems. I actually wrote 20 poems over the course of the month, and while I'm sure there is some editing to be done, that's a lot of creative time. And I loved it. Now I haven't even really been motivated to sit down and write yet this week. It kind of feels like something I have to do instead of something I desire.

Speaking of which, this devotional time is becoming a bit like that as well. I want to keep up our relationship, but I haven't really been willing to commit to it in a significant way. I've been wanting to keep up my workouts in the morning, and with the other early morning commitments I have (tennis and faculty meetings) it seems that our time together is easily pushed to the side. I figure that I'll get it in during my prep period, but then I've had so much to grade and plan that that hasn't worked out either. So, here we are.

I want to pursue You. That's why, despite my tiredness, I got up this morning and didn't let it go into my prep period. That's why I caught up on the Scripture reading. That's why I'm making sure that I'm rededicating myself to my rule-of-life. I do these actions because I love You and because they help me obey. This is me showing You that I care. Please, bring some stress relief into my life. Help me to prioritize time for the things that make me come alive to You.

Oh, and thank You for my family and friends. I missed out on noonday praise yesterday, and that was not a good thing to miss out on. I love You for providing my wife and my sweet little boy, my parents (on both sides), brother and sisters, even grandparents who travel up here to spend time with their great-grandson. I love them all and You have provided them. Thank You!