Okay, so I still need to work on that confidence part from yesterday. I went to school thinking that You would be my support and that I'd be able to face up to anything. But then one 7th grader's attitude just sucked all the life out of me, and I had trouble getting that life back.
It seems to me that apathy is the "dry and weary land where there is no water" that I read about today in Psalm 63. Yesterday, while my soul longed to be with You, I found myself fighting against the dryness. And that fight and the apathy, well, my confidence shriveled.
Not that I'm blaming You for that. I know that You are right there, like a glass of tall water. It's just that somehow I'm not accessing that cool spring of living water. I'm not getting the refreshment that an encounter with You can give.
And yet I love You and know the promise that Your presence holds. I know You are helping through a period of maturing, perhaps this whole fight to get to Your fountain will help me begin to develop perseverance.
Thanks for always dealing with us as a loving Father. Please, take my life and mold it to be ever more like that.
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