Where To?

Drifting, it's a good way to describe my discipline right now. As You know, I've been really convicted about getting back into a very disciplined routine lately. So this week I've made it a priority. But I'm starting to get stuck. Yea, I know, already. I'm stuck within a week!

The problem isn't motivation or time. It's destination. What am I working through and where is it taking me...

No, actually as I type this out I realize that it's not even that. It's this evil fight that I frickin' fight all the time. It's the fight of production. Every time I sit down with You I feel like I MUST walk away with something to share with others or even just for my own benefit. And so I chase things that give me good feelings. And when the feelings begin to fade...

I need to keep being honest with this stupid, but all to real, instinct. My mind and all I want to believe about true Christ-likeness says that transformation and relationship are the ROAD, not the destination.

Wait, I remember blogging about the way, the truth, and the life awhile ago. What did I say about that? Okay, I don't think that I had the same thought that I have now. The Bible is about repetition, saying the same thing in different ways. What if when You said You were the way, the truth, and the life You were saying all those things (way, truth, and life) are the same thing?!

That's brilliant! The way (like the road, the path, the journey) is the truth. The way is life. Not the ending point. Not the destination. Not what we produce. The way of discipline then, not necessarily what I take from it, that is truth. The disciplined way of living, committing to early morning relationship, that is life.

This makes me feel really free! Free from having to produce some brilliant thought of my own. Free to simply rest with You.

LORD, that is what it is all about. Build my discipline, build our relationship, as we walk this path together.