A Rambling Prayer I'm Sure

I just desire to come talk to You. So much has gone on in my life throughout the past week, and so much more will take place today and this week. Let's be honest and up front, for tennis this is the week that the whole season has been building towards, the beginning of and end of sectionals all happens within the next seven days. My seniors have been waiting for this for three years. And so have I. It could make this week incredibly stressful.

But I'm coming before You, because after talking with Courtney last night, I realize that something that is very important is to have my priorities straight and then "prove" that. Or, to have my priorities in the right order and actually commit my time to keeping them in the right order. So You must be first. You give me so much and pour blessing over many areas of my life. But it's about more than just repaying You for blessing, it's about You being so passionate in Your love for me, how can I not love You back? I do not know at times how to show You that You are my top priority. I'm willing to accept and actively (at times anyways) seek Your will for my decisions and actions. I try to pass Your blessings on to others. I try to commit myself to times like these, reading the Word and talking to You. Perhaps I need to balance my doing with listening, for only when You speak to me will I be sure I'm doing the right things anyways.

So, if I made a list of my priorities, it would look like this:
1. Relationship with God.
2. Relationship with Courtney and Gideon.
3. Relationships with Exodus Community friends.
4. Tennis stuff.
5. School stuff.

Can I even begin to think that I can follow those priorities this week? I mean, I have tennis matches (which I can't really skip to like hang out with Gideon and Courtney) and it's also the week of sectionals (which means I probably should give real close attention to the tennis stuff anyways because it could be over if we're not careful). I certainly would like to be a more scheduled person, you know, like with a plan written out in my planner that shows I'm spending 14 hours with God this week, 12 hours alone with Court and Gid, 11 hours into Exodus stuff, 10 hours into tennis, blah blah blah blah. It's really tempting to make some sort of system that proves my commitment to the different areas of life.

Let me start here though: I am passionate about pursuing You. I want to stay passionate about pursuing You. Something is telling me right now that if I can accomplish priority number one, that everything else will fall in line. I pray that I can pursue You properly this week. For I do love You, my Lord and my Savior. Amen.